That title caught your attention, eh?
They say a goldfish starts everyday new. They have no memory of the day before so each day they learn things all over again. When they see their tank-mate swimming around with them, they have to “meet” each other all over again. What a bummer. It must be an odd feeling to start afresh every day. Do they even realize that is what happens? Probably not.
I feel like a goldfish.
I wake up each day (or almost each day) with insecurities and question my value and worth… and even though God told me the day before how wonderful and valuable I am to Him… I forget. Why do I continue to look to the “world” for approval and to define my worth? When will I learn that it is ONLY Him that defines me?
I’ve seen God move in HUGE ways in my life. I’ve seen him heal a marriage. Heal an illness. Give us children which we were told we couldn’t have. Provide for us financially when Wayne lost his job. … and the list goes on.
So when I see all the miracles He’s performed. When I see His divine attention to detail. When I see how He is Jehovah-Jira and provides for us in every way… why do I still depend so much on the world and forget who He told me I was just yesterday?
I hate it. I get so frustrated with myself. Why can’t I have stronger faith? How do I get it? How do I keep it so insecurities are not a struggle every stinkin’ day?
I’m a child of God and through His son my identity is solid in Him… and that is enough! I don’t need the world to tell me who I am. Lord… help me believe this down to the marrow of my bones.
Tell me… if anyone is out there reading this… where does your worth come from?