I sat in church last weekend… in a crowd of hundreds… and felt completely alone.
The heaviness of that feeling was oppressive.
My heart ached.
I wanted to run out and hide in the comfort of my home.
But instead of giving into it, I fought the tears that so quickly tried to come. I continued to stand and immerse myself in the worship.
And with eyes closed off from the world, I cried out to God.
“Lord, come fill that empty place right now. Be enough for me. Remind me that you are my friend. I need to feel necessary and important and valuable. Be as close as my breath.”
For the entire worship time (which can be lengthy in a charismatic church), I placed this request before the only One who can fill me the way I need to be filled.
And a wonderful thing happened.
It worked.
Jeremiah 29:13-14a tells us why. “When you seek me in prayer and worship, you will find me available to you. If you seek me with all your heart and soul, I will make myself available to you,’ says the LORD.”
Oh what a glorious promise for you and me.
When we cry out to our God… He is there.
Every. Time.
That means so much to me.
Because sometimes there aren’t enough people in the world to make us feel like we matter. And to be honest, it’s not their job.
We were created with an empty space only God can fill.
And He will.
So when we cry out in our loneliness… in our feelings of worthlessness… when we’re certain we aren’t good enough… when we feel friendless… God is there.
He gently reminds us that we hold great value.
That we matter.
That we are not alone.
And a sense of peace and belonging drips from Heaven and saturates our hearts.
Oh I felt that this weekend.
I’m learning to be quicker to ask God for what I need.
When I do…
Relief is faster.
It’s longer-lasting.
It pierces deeper.
It’s pure.
I wonder if you can relate to those feelings of loneliness and worthlessness. Do you find yourself lonely in a crowd? Do you feel left-out? Are there times you struggle to feel valued?
Girls… cry out to God.
It can be a guttural cry or a silent prayer. It can be at the grocery store or in your car. It can be eloquent words or a groan.
He knows your heart.
And so when we seek Him… He is always available and ready to fill that empty space with… Him.
There’s nothing better.
REALITY CHECK: Jesus is closer than your next breath.
♥♥♥
©2013 Carey Scott
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“Because sometimes there aren’t enough people in the world to make us feel like we matter. And to be honest, it’s not their job.
We were created with an empty space only God can fill.
And He will.”
Wow-such a powerful reminder! Thanks for living this journey outloud! How often I have felt the same – God is enough! And He alone satisfies if we give Him the chance— great confirmation for me! Thanks friend-love you!
Thanks Amanda! Really understanding that God is enough is transformational. It’s taken a while, but I am seeing this truth come to life when I let Him!
Thank you for sharing your real life struggle. As women I think we can so relate to these feelings. What stood out to me was your quote “And a sense of peace and belonging drips from Heaven and saturates our hearts.” Looking for God to fill us brings heaven to earth!! Love that!! Rejoicing that our Savior loves and accepts us as we are – and He is able to use these times to draw us closer to Him and to establish a dependency on Him. It’s crazy, it’s fascinating, its amazing how God works!!!
Jeanelle… it is crazy and fascinating and amazing! I love how God always meets us right where we are. 🙂
I’m not sure if i know anyone as hungry for God as you are!
Blessings, ML
Wow, Carey. You hit the nail right on the head for me AGAIN.
Rachael… glad to know I’m not alone! 🙂
Carey thanks for being so very transparent. I feel like you expressed exactly the struggle that I am have this very day, at this very moment. The adversary is very busy whispering lies into my ears that I this will certainly work for you but not for me. Thanks for reminding me that He is that close, closer than my next breath. I needed that today.